Living Alone

I am a freshman in college, and I have suffered and survived a full semester. As I head into my second semester I have realized the power of living alone. In a dorm. Let me start off by saying, I was making myself physically sick worrying about having a roommate. I also did not vet […]

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A Guy…

There’s a guy. Hah. Isn’t that the start of literally every young adult novel? So, a guy. He’d never like me. And he is way to young for me. Too smart for me. Has been on more dates than I could ever dream up going on. He dates thin girls, that are always happy. I am […]

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Blame Yourself

You You blame yourself for how I am For my tears For my fears You blame yourself Notice something? It says “my” Not “you” It has nothing to do with you My fear of life My fear of living My sadness on Earth My ocean of tears Crashing against the shores of my fears My […]

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What Did I Do?

What did I do? I won. I listened. I obeyed. I did not fight you. What did I do? To make it worth hating you. What? I won. I listened. I obeyed. I am destroyed by your words that cut me like blades I am killed every day seeing you here In my home Where […]

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Something

A hit That never bruises A cut That doesn’t bleed. This is something This is what I live with Yelling That cuts sharper than any knife Words That will bruise as black as his soul. This is something. This is my life I cannot be free I am pinned I am trapped. I cannot breath. […]

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More Scholarships

Ok. It’s not that I hate scholarships. I love the fact that I can get free money. The part that I hate is the endless applying for the free money. Because God knows that I’m broke. So, I have to think about what exactly I have done in the past four years of my life. […]

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Holidays

Happy Easter! Or whatever! Yeah. So. Holidays in my family are an absolute hell. My mum has two sisters that are married with kids. And we are loud. Like extremely loud. We have gotten noise complaints from neighbours about our noise level. So, yeah, loud ass family. That’s us. Also, appreciate that my dad hates […]

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Youth Group

This topic will more than likely be a running theme for my blog. I am 17 years old. I understand that I am not an adult. But I also understand that I am more mature than the 20-year-old youth member in my youth group. 20. Years. Old. No license. Never been in a public school. His […]

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Spanish

Please allow me to warn you that I completely suck at Spanish. I love the culture. I love the history. I just cannot do the Spanish class to save my life. I go every day. I ask questions. I take good notes. I don’t fall asleep. I’m a good student overall. But oh my god […]

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Teachers

Oh my god. Let it be known that teachers job are a hell of a job. The reason I say this is because I assist in two classes this semester. And it is insane. You don’t get thanked. Kids blame you for their bad grades. You get cussed out. You end up wanting to curse the […]

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